GARDEN OF HAUNTING SORROWS, Card 14

Garden of Haunting Sorrows, Card 14 st6


WHO ARE YOU?

I am the one who...

I am the one who is scared.
I am the one who feels the pain long forgotten.
I am the one who bleeds for wounds that had no blood, who bleeds for the teasing, the disrespect, the misunderstandings of others.
I am the one who is too small, too little, too young.
I am the one who believed you when you said I couldn’t, I wasn’t capable, and didn’t even need to try.
I am the one who knew she’d fail without even trying because that’s what you said.
I am the one who listened to you and forgot to listen to herself.
I am the one who cried.
I am the one who still feeling it, still believes and is angry.
I am the one who hates you for it.
I am the one who cannot trust, is afraid because of you.
I am the one who screamed, I am the one who cried and I am the one no one heard.
I am the one too small underfoot to be noticed, who was ignored and forgotten
I am the one who learned to be quiet, learned no one would listen to her anyway.
I am the one who was too small, too little, too cute for her opinions to matter.
Who was never asked what she thought until it was too late and she didn’t know what she thought anymore.
I am the one who doubts, feels fear and is pretty sure that after you read this will run away too.
I am the one who does not trust you because of what others did.
I am the one who knows the indignity of that and yet cannot stop it.
I am the one who wants more but fears the ridicule.

WHAT DO YOU GIVE ME?

I give you...

Fear, doubt, tears and pain.

WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO DO?

I want you too...

Know it will always be the same.